My life to live

Still perplexed on how my life led me this route I contemplate. . .

What did you want to be when you grew up? Did you ever think you would be where you are today? Did you ever think that you would be the person that you are today?

I am a lucky man. Not lucky in the sense that "luck is on my side" or that I win the lottery every time I play, but lucky in a different sense.

Although my ideal life plan has not gone as planned, I wonder, what is the ideal? Is ideal what you see in the movies and call a happy ending? Idealistically, life would be easy street and everything would go as you want it, but what fun would life be if everything went as planned? Sure, I am a man of routine and habit. I buy the same pair of shoes every year since my freshman year of high school. I use the same stall in the bathroom every time. I buy the same toothpaste every time. In class I sit in the front every time and when I go to the gym I do exercises in the same order every time. It's just comforting when you have a plan and it goes your way, but let's not be foolish, that is not how life goes.

No matter how much control you have over your life there is a lot that you have to take without a hand in the matter. You learn as you get older that there are things you can control and things you can't. Really, all that matters is how you handle the things you can control.

Like I said, I have been blessed in my life and for that I credit the wonderful people that I have had the opportunity to be with. My parents raised me the best that they knew how and gave me unconditional love no matter what . My friends along the way have helped me to find out who I am and what kind of a person I want to be. Relationships helped me see a lot of what I want in life and what I expect from it.

So, would I trade my life for any other? No. Everything that has happened in my life has made me who I am and that's what makes people unique. This is my life and it is something that can't ever be reproduced.

Ever so sentimental,
Nick